Youngest is beginning his downward slide again. For two days he was fairly compliant;edgy,but able to be redirected. Today he was back to refusal mode and slid into cussing and muttering and death glares for no discernible reason. He wants to be in his room when he is like this. The only problem is, once he is up there he refuses to come down. He once told his PO, his dad and me that what he wants is to always be in his room an be fed through a hatch in the door. On the days he refuses to leave his room I end up bringing him a peanut butter sandwich,carrot sticks and a glass of water at bedtime. So in effect, he gets his cell and the food through the hatch in the door.
If I insist he return downstairs, he escalates. He stormed upstairs this evening daring me to stop him. I would have assured he would have escalated into violence if I had. So I didn’t.
This evening he blocked his door with his dresser. I had to tell him his body needed food even though he wasn’t hungry. When he reblocked his door again, I told him that he had to keep his door free in case of fire or his body might burn. We had to be able to get to him . (this is true,we have his window locked to keep him fro sitting in the second story sill). At that point his dad talked him into using the bathroom. I talked him into brushing his teeth since he was already in the bathroom. His dad then convinced him to shower since he was already in the bathroom.
I then read him his story and prayed over him and kissed him good night.
It was as if the entire day had not occurred.
I honestly do not know If I was conned,or if my son can simply not handle basic life anymore. Neither is comforting.
He may not know either.
The psychiatrist’s office called. There is an opening on Wednesday morning.
I hope we can make it until then.