success and nerves

My youngest daughter ranked in CAP!!!!! Her brother also took the test (which is a big deal in and of itself) but he didn’t pass. He neglected to study. Back to my daughter…she passed her test! As of a month ago she said she didn’t want to rank. It didn’t bother her to be passed up by kids who started later,who were younger. We told her we thought it was sad,her not caring. We told both the kids that not trying meant deciding to fail. We also told them that trying and failing was nothing to be ashamed about. It is perfectly acceptable to try again. They knew the litany. They’d heard it before.

I guess they were listening. This is the first time they have put themselves in a position of success. It is a very big step forward. I am very pleased to see them stretching themselves. There may be hope yet.

Tomorrow I will take the kids and drive to meet our new son. I will let the kids play in the park until it gets too hot. It seems the best way for them to get to know each other a little . It will be neutral ground. That way my husband can sleep some. He will get home around 6:30 in the morning and the extra hour or so will help.

I was never given the foster moms phone number. I wanted to talk to her about how new son was doing after last week. I wanted to know when he went to bed, what foods he liked and disliked. I wanted to know if she noticed any triggers so we could avoid them. I wanted to hear from her how he interacts with the other kids. I will know none of these things. I will be flying completely blind. I am not happy about this. It is not for our sakes I am upset but for new son’s sake. Can you imagine how he is sleeping tonight? His life changes tomorrow at 10:30 am. He has no idea who we are. All he has is a photo album and a four hour visit.

If I am feeling nervous, what is he feeling?

About lenell

Wife to a very patient man and mom to 8 interesting kids via birth,marriage and adoption. Grandma to nearly 5,nearly perfect grandchildren.
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