2010

This year will be my half-century mark. When I was a kid I thought I would be a lot older at fifty than I feel. (yes,dad,I know I have six months to go. This is an anticipatory mid life crisis). I know many people get philosophical on New Year’s Day and then forget philosophy and [...]

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out with the old

The tree is down. Furniture is back to it’s accustomed place (although that may change soon;I think I am tired of the current arrangement-although I am too lazy to do much about it today)
I have purchased the chips and soda for the kids.I’ll make some queso and that is the extent of our excitement.
2009 was [...]

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thinking too much again

I’ve been thinking about family. What it is and what it isn’t. I have also been thinking a lot about God’s family.
I know those who set great store in their genealogy. They take great pride in ancestors long dead. For some the dead take emotional precedence over the living. I have never quite understood that. [...]

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the day after

Today is the day after Christmas. The house is clean. The kids are in their various areas reading and drawing. I am sure they will play video later,but for now my laptop is the only electronic gadget in operation.
We had a nice Christmas even with most of the family at work. The kids are back [...]

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christmas eve

It has been fairly busy this week,even though we try to keep the holidays very low key. On Monday we had Christmas with my oldest daughter and her family,then we had Christmas with my middle daughter and her family.Today my middle son and his family are over for Christmas Eve dinner and we will do [...]

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well,he tried hard…

My thirteen year old decided with less than a week to go,he should earn some money for Christmas. I gave him two jobs. One was to clean out the refrigerator and freezer and the other was to clean the pantry. He did a wonderful job cleaning. I was sure to tell him specifically to throw [...]

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so much for not grieving

I lied. We are grieving. We are second and third and even forth guessing how we have interacted with youngest. We are praying for a miracle and wondering where God is. This isn’t the best time of year to be battling grief and feelings of failure.
I know all of the rational answers to our feeing. [...]

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a phone call and other things that make one say “huh?’

Youngest called last night. He was cheerful. I asked him why he was calling. It was an honest question. He was exceptionally verbally abusive when I saw him the day before. I was told,quite forcefully how much he hated me and never wanted to see me etc,etc. I am the cause of all his problems, [...]

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a long day

It was a very long day. My husband and I did manage to get some shopping in and get a bite of lunch. That was good. Traffic wasn’t very bad so the hundred mile drive didn’t take to long. Also good.
Then we had family therapy. I was prepared to dislike this newest councilor. I don’t. [...]

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working through the mad,unable vs unwilling and off to visit

The three here at home are finally working through their mad. I took them shopping for Christmas craft supplies on Saturday which helped. Both boys are doing much,much better. My husband asked my son what happened on his Chemistry test. My son told him he blanked on his math. He just couldn’t remember any of [...]

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